Sometimes you just miss it so much your heart hurts. You close your eyes and concentrate hard enough and you are back there. Feeling that love, encompassed by that overpowering sense of humility and wonder. You miss being inspired. Everything around you reminds you of how it once was.
Life continues, its mundane processes taking away the excitement that once was. And for the most part, you continue, unphased, on auto-pilot.
But it could happen anywhere. On the walk from the subway to your house, just as you are turning onto 121st; as you ride up the elevator, or back down; in the middle of your friends' story of her day; as you go to pick up your phone; the first moment you open your email in the morning - anywhere. It sneaks up on you...a pain so acute it threatens to suffocate you.
You let it run its course and finish what it started. Those sweet memories all swirling together to create one common sense of deep sadness.
Then the moment passes, you breathe, and continue on your way.
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